Monday, January 03, 2005

Resolution

This blog is sort of one of my New Year's resolutions.

My resolution is not to lose weight. It is to be honest, even if behind a thick pixelated veil of anonymity, and so this is a blog about being fat, and in places and spheres in which one is not supposed to be fat. For all this talk of the Obesity Epidemic, I have always been the only Fat Girl. Or one of two, one of two girls who never looked at each other and for the love of all that is holy never talked to each other or walked next to each other, lest they blow their respective covers.

Because nice girls don't get fat. Not smart, witty girls at top-tier liberal-arts colleges, not girls with pretty faces, not upper-middle-class girls with nice parents with good jobs, not girls who read Vogue and know the names of fifteen-year-old models and the designers whose clothes are draped over them, not girls who listen to indie rock and go to parties in Brooklyn. Not those girls.

I am smart and witty and upper-middle-class and educated and I live in New York and go to school on the West Coast and read Vogue and care what's in it and I weigh two hundred and eighty seven-pounds. I don't exist.

The fact that I don't exist is what makes it okay for people to make fat jokes in front of me. Yesterday I was at the final performance of Golda's Balcony (which, frankly, I found underwhelming) and the part of Tovah Feldshuh's curtain speech that drew the most commentary backstage was her remark about "getting into [her] fat suit," which she seemed to want to get in to make sure we knew that "if you think this is my body, you're crazy."

"Spoken like a woman," my father said to her in the warm self-congratulatory backstage glow, enormously amused, and though I wanted to tell him later that I hadn't found it quite as charming as he had, I didn't want to draw attention to myself, the elephant in the room.

Something like that happens almost every day. A commercial on television that makes me freeze but at which other people don't even blink. Someone tapping me on the shoulder on the street, urging me to take off my headphones so that he can hand me advertisements for a weight-loss system.

So that's what this blog is for. I'm not trying to broadcast my weight-loss whatever. I'm trying to tell the truth.

8 comments:

shinta said...

I can relate. I live in Orange County so I'm surrounded by "hot chicks" 24/7. Yeah, I cringe too when I see some commercials or "funny" movies.

It's Me, Maven... said...

Hope you decide to keep blogging. Looks like it's been months since you posted. Blogging can be a great outlet.

Signed another fatty,
NuggetMaven

The little voice inside my head said...

I really liked your blog and can relate as well. I've been fat all my life and now I find myself in college in Los Angeles and see all these really really skinny people, in and out of school. Most of them look straight out of magazines. I'm the only fat person in my classes. SIGH*

It's Me, Maven... said...

You might be interested in this group called the Chubby Girl Brigade. Go check them out:

www.chubbygirlbrigade.com

I'm a member!

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or informational purpose only and you should seek professional advice from registered financial advisor before you do anything related
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========Latest Profile==========
Energy & Asset Technology, Inc. (EGTY)
Current Price $0.15
================================

Recognize this undiscovered gem which is poised to jump!!

Please read the following Announcement in its Entierty and
Consider the Possibilities
Watch this One to Trade!

Because, EGTY has secured the global rights to market
genetically enhanced fast growing, hard-wood trees!

EGTY trading volume is beginning to surge with landslide Announcement.
The value of this Stock appears poised for growth! This one will not
remain on the ground floor for long.

Keep Reading!!!!

===============
"BREAKING NEWS"
===============

-Energy and Asset Technology, Inc. (EGTY) owns a global license to market
the genetically enhanced Global Cedar growth trees, with plans to
REVOLUTIONIZE the forest-timber industry.

These newly enhanced Global Cedar trees require only 9-12 years of growth before they can
be harvested for lumber, whereas worldwide growth time for lumber is 30-50 years.

Other than growing at an astonishing rate, the Global Cedar has a number of other benefits.
Its natural elements make it resistant to termites, and the lack of oils and sap found in the wood
make it resistant to forest fire, ensuring higher returns on investments.

the wood is very lightweight and strong, lighter than Poplar and over twice
as strong as Balsa, which makes it great for construction. It also has
the unique ability to regrow itself from the stump, minimizing the land and
time to replant and develop new root systems.

Based on current resources and agreements, EGTY projects revenues of $140 Million
with an approximate profit margin of 40% for each 9-year cycle. With anticipated
growth, EGTY is expected to challenge Deltic Timber Corp. during its initial 9-year cycle.

Deltic Timber Corp. currently trades at over $38.00 a share with about $153 Million in revenues.
As the reputation and demand for the Global Cedar tree continues to grow around the world
EGTY believes additional multi-million dollar agreements will be forthcoming. The Global Cedar nursery has produced
about 100,000 infant plants and is developing a production growth target of 250,000 infant plants per month.

Energy and Asset Technology is currently in negotiations with land and business owners in New Zealand,
Greece and Malaysia regarding the purchase of their popular and profitable fast growing infant tree plants.
Inquiries from the governments of Brazil and Ecuador are also being evaluated.

Conclusion:

The examples above show the Awesome, Earning Potential of little
known Companies That Explode onto Investor�s Radar Screens.
This stock will not be a Secret for long. Then You May Feel the Desire to Act Right
Now! And Please Watch This One Trade!!


GO EGTY!


All statements made are our express opinion only and should be treated as such.
We may own, take position and sell any securities mentioned at any time. Any statements that express or involve discussions with respect
to predictions, goals, expectations, beliefs, plans, projections, objectives, assumptions or future events or performance are
not statements of historical fact and may be "forward, looking
statements." forward, looking statements are based on expectations, estimates
and projections at the time the statements are made that involve a number of risks and uncertainties which could cause actual results
or events to differ materially from those presently anticipated. This newsletter was paid $3,000 from third party (IR Marketing).
Forward,|ooking statements in this action may be identified through the use of words such as: "projects", "foresee", "expects". in compliance with Se'ction 17. {b), we disclose the holding of EGTY shares prior to the publication of this report. Be aware of an inherent conflict of interest resulting from such holdings due to our intent to profit from the liquidation of these shares. Shares may be sold at any time, even after positive statements have been made regarding the above company. Since we own shares, there is an inherent conflict of interest in our statements and opinions. Readers of this publication are cautioned not to place undue reliance on forward,looking statements, which are based on certain assumptions and expectations involving various risks and uncertainties that could cause results to
differ materially from those set forth in the forward- looking statements. This is not solicitation to buy or sell stocks, this text is
or informational purpose only and you should seek professional advice from registered financial advisor before you do anything related with buying or selling stocks, penny stocks are very high risk and you can lose your entire investment.

Dilly Dilly said...

Please return to blogging, many many people can relate to you story. Each day I wake up and look in the mirror and wonder why I am fat. I am not supposed to be fat, I am supposed to have the body to shop in any store or boutique - I respect fashion, why can't I take a bigger part in it?

And if you do decide to continue, if you use the "word verification" setting on your settings, you won't get stupid spam comments. :)

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